Continuing Level 2 Reflections

Continued reflections on Level 2
As I continue to reflect on the teachings of level 2 especially on ten second miracle I went back in time to several years ago when I noticed that, the times when I had most fun was when I tuned into the child part of me and allowed myself to play. I loved the feeling of being free without the influence of the adult voice telling me to control myself. I have always enjoyed my work especially when working with groups. On several occasions I introduced play through dancing to music but in the corporate world there seems to be a strong resistance to such play which is regarded as a waste of time and has no purpose. But what we know is that play and learning go together and that is what I find appealing in your writings that adults play when they are at work. That suggests that when adults play at work that is when they are creating value because they feel they are at their best and are also open to learning with and from each other which leads to creating better and productive working relationships.
I realize now how my need to follow, the bicameral mind, lead me to blindly follow a spiritual guide who lead me astray and I got myself involved in scam mail. I now realize how powerful the belief in mysticism can be as I completely abandoned self-leadership and moved into total following, to be told what to do rather than think and guide myself. I see my behavior as self-distractive and unconscionable. Is that partly the influence of the ten-second miracle that I can see so clearly that behavior in myself now or am I off the track here? Perhaps I am working too hard to force me to see what is not yet possible for me to see currently. Yet the bicameral thinking helps me to have some understanding and explanation of my past behavior that brought about being scammed. I can now see how and why my decision making was flawed because of my wish to follow without questioning and not because I have what the doctors have call Frontal Temporal Lobar Degeneration !
I am struggling getting to grips with the idea of focusing on numbers. I think I do not yet have the full picture of what the numbers will lead to. I am noticing an emerging persistent interest to engage in activities to do with numbers, for instance playing Sudoku. My interest in that activity has been heightened. While I find that exciting but I also find it puzzling! I notice also that I have flitting thoughts on increasing number of clients for group work and the number of programs that I would need to run for a profitable financial return. Then I come into a block when I think about how much to charge. All this thinking makes me wonder if I am staying within the requirement of the homework task. Then I realize that perhaps there is not one single answer but a process of thinking that will begin to open up my mind to other possibilities and meaningful integration. Eddy