Breaking from Stagnation
April 17, 2011 by tdomf_55091
Filed under Integrations
I realize now why I have been so depressed for most of my life past the age of 11. I grew up in a household and a society that would look down upon anyone that did not conform. I have been constantly surrounded for over a decade in nearly all aspects of my life in such an environment. This environment has, literally, almost killed my conscious thought of creativity.
To this day, the most fun I have ever had in my life was as a child going to my grandparent’s house. I realize now this is because that was the only place I was aloud to be me, not forced to confirm, and could create. Unfortunately, it has been so long ago and they have since passed.
I look forward to finding out my deep motivational drive, my FNE. I hope I am able to open my mind up one way or another to allow for TSM’s to manifest as well. These are the only tools I know of to use in order to break from a highly depressive stagnation that has seeped into my very bones and soul.