Believe in myself?

Dear Mr. Hamilton:
As I said in my last integrated comment after the first meeting for some reason I was doing integrated thinking in my place of work and I worked myself to the top position in my department. That was very long before Neothink appeared into my life.
I used to take work in my mind to home.
Using some kind of problem solving skill, that my own dad taught me during my childhood, I would usually came back to work the next day, or after the weekend, with new ideas. Right now I am stuck and I cannot go any further…so I don’t think I can do anymore integrated thinking, at least not for the company I am currently working. I cannot get any higher than I already did.

I have two FNE. I just have to decide which one develop.
Flipping houses is one of them. I have that since I was a young teenager. Every time I was going to different houses for a visit, for some reason, I would start changing everything in my mind. At the end of my visit that house would look totally different in my mind from the original. I keep doing it….constantly….wherever I move I will change the house or apartment in my mind and even I will draw the changes on a sheet of paper. Sometimes I even flip entire neighborhoods. I will usually seat at a different spot of my city and begin to change everything I see. I am in a constant stage of day dreaming.

So, I have my FNE and I already did experienced the Ten Second Miracle at my place of work. The problem is that, all my life, I was told “I am useless”, “un-useful”, “dummy”, etc.
So I have all these ideas but I always believed that I couldn’t accomplished them.

How some body like me can accomplish such a thing?

and all of the sudden… out of the blue….. you….came along and told me….I can do it….

You are telling me I CAN DO THAT…
You are telling me I CAN DO REAL ESTATE BUSINESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
or whatever my FNE is….

Now…..lets see
-I am a Medical Records director in a Clinic…..
-I make a miserly hourly wage…
-They reduced the hours in all of the employees, including me, so they didn’t have to fire anybody.
-I am buried in a lot of debt.

So…..how can I learn to believe that I can do that?
How Can I believe you, when you are saying to me that I have been chosen to become one of the genius of Society?
How can I learn to believe in myself?

OK… you are right…, through my job, I have proven myself to be capable to get to where I got…..but….REAL ESTATE?…..fulfill my dream of restoring and redesigning houses, neighborhoods?

It is hard to believe….!!!!!!!!!!!

I will do as you say…..I will be thinking numbers at work to see how it goes….I have an open mind…..I have opened my mind to you…..completely………… and I am going to do as you said.

See you next meeting.

Andrea