Myself revisited

I have long been creative and craved being so. My life as a young professional was that of a research physicist. There I was drawn by the opportunity to create the technology used in the experiments, and to explain technology and physics to others (although I spent very little time in teaching jobs). Perhaps these activities represent my FNE, and I would say that I had TSM’s. Computers got to play an increasing role. I eventually left that world because it did not offer financial rewards, which I instead found with computer-oriented commercial employers. Unfortunately, those workplaces expect a gradual transition from technical creativity to business creativity, all the while perverting the technology to become “gain today, and after us it is someone else’s problem”. In fact, even back in research, I came to despise the way computers were viewed by the layman, and today those views have created the security mess we have today. I was resisting the idea of being anything but a pure technologist, until I got so old that I was no longer good at technology, and lost my job. I would probably have lived a happier life had I abruptly abdicated as computer guy and become a manager -perhaps then I might have had some TSM’s based on business numbers. Today, I wonder if my FNE might be teaching astro-photography on the Internet (shades of my old self) or to make that management switch as a long retired person and just get my revenge on technology by becoming rich using such despicable phenomena as social media.