Is this normal?

Hey there Mr. Hamilton. I actually had a few things that I wanted to talk about, a few questions I wanted to ask, and hopefully you or other members of the society can help provide me with the answers I seek. I suppose before I get into something that has been bothering me ever since the arrival of my first Heirloom package, I might as well address the question specific to this particular meeting (level 2). You said that the 10 Second Miracle is like snapping together a big puzzle-picture of all of the old knowledge to see a larger picture and create new knowledge… the question that stands before me is… all of the knowledge we currently possess is tainted by the anticivilization. We only know what we are taught or what we learn through experience… with the exception of the experience-related learning, how can we know what knowledge can be trusted? What if we find ourselves snapping together pieces of INCORRECT knowledge? If everything we know is indeed tainted, we virtually have to start at square one and teach ourselves EVERYTHING before we can even begin to snap old knowledge together. That can be truly problematic, for you can not build a puzzle without the pieces to fit together, and when it comes to knowledge, only a reliable teacher can provide knowledge with which to build upon… how can we avoid snapping together incorrect pieces of information? Even in seeing through to the essence of something, incorrect conclusions may be drawn, how can we avoid this?

Okay now I want to talk about something that has been happening to me… ever since I read my first Heirloom package, I am seeing things differently. It’s like… the world has slowed down and everything I view is in slow motion… the people walking around me… cars passing on the freeway… objects thrown in mid air… they seem to be moving at half-speed or less. I find myself growing irritated easily by the irrationalities of the people around me, and everywhere I turn I can SEE the anticivilization…. and it makes me PHYSICALLY SICK… is this normal…? I thought that being able to see things in a different way and unlocking my FNE would bring me happiness… and it has, but only when I am working on it. At all other times when I stop and look up, I see the anticivilation and it makes me physically ill, lethargic, and disgusted. Especially in my current place of work. All of my efforts to engage Project Curiosity and the Self Leader Programs have been shut down by my superiors, and even my attempts to make improvements (several of which if applied would dramatically reduce the companies loss of profits due to wasted material) have been shoved aside. I can see that the company I am working for will drive itself into the ground because it is being run by a second generation CEO and other people who have absolutely NO business sense, and it makes me sick. I am currently in the process of relocating myself into another career path that I believe will lead me to a position in which I can aid the Neothink movement, but the problem is, I am young, only 21 years old, and the path I am taking is a very LONG and arduous one, while simoultaneously requiring me to relinquish my self-leadership (I have enlisted in the Marines, I ship in Feb. which means I may unfortunately be forced to miss my final few meetings=( )and place my life in a compromisable position for the time being. Is what I’m going through natural…? Should I be feeling this way?