Stagnation

I have learnt to see my place of work differently,through the Eyes of numbers to make creative breakthrough.Stagnation is the worse kind of cancer which kills the conscious mind ,I have one experience to share of STAGNATION ,I have changed my
jobs so much every time the job became so boring I could not take it I had to move on because it was going to put me in sanity and that was not me ,when I am working I have to be smiling and happy .
FRIDAY NIGHT ESSENCE ,WHY DO I SEE 4-5 OF THEM And WHEN I THINK ABOUT THEM feel GREAT , VERY HAPPY,AM I DOING SOME THING WRONG ??? IF I THINK LESS # I DO NOT FEEL EXCITED AND HAPPY . PLEASE TELL ME AM I WRONG DOING SOMETHING I AM NOT SUPPOSE TO ???? I see thoughts like a movie and I am always there , I can not think any other way when I try it becomes very difficult for me. I always Enjoyed caring & helping others ,I forgot about me ,I only remember others Now I have to think about it to change a little .I see the puzzle picture in my head for Elderly and sick and solution for their comfort.